Counting Down 50

Stuck at 193! I had hit that 189 but promptly bumped back up to 193 and I've just been stuck there. Not gaining but not losing. Not eating the best either. Need to get back on it. Been fighting headaches and sinus pain for a while. I think it's the awful weather, just doesn't make me real motivated to do anything. Plus it's been so ungodly hot! The heat index has been over 100 every day. It's just miserable. You can't stand to go outside or do anything. From about 8am on it's just yuck! Still yucky at 10pm. I can't wait till the temps come down. Other issue is that maybe my health issues lately - well I'll explain that first. I was over a week late this month and finally it showed and it was bad! I was bleeding so heavily one day I was dizzy and couldn't stand or walk. The headaches, the sore feeling throat, the just super exhaustion... it all screams thyroid. I could rush off to the doctor and get meds, which would bump me for a while but then...

I hit my goal for our trip, weighed in at 189.8 the day we left, WOO HOO!  However, my weight has been hanging at 193 since we got back. Could be the bad eating of the trip, the bad eating this week, the pre-period weight I always seem to gain OR all of the above. Coming back I expected to have life calm down, but it hasn't. Between me working, kids in school and stuff that needs done I feel like I'm just inches under water but can't quite get to the top for that air. I get home around 10 30 or 11, I eat because I'm starving, I haven't eaten since 11am. Watch some tv and go to bed. I get up at 6 30am and I'm just dead. I'm dragging all day, when I'm lacking energy my body wants to eat - and never anything good so I've been having junk food and rice crispy treats. It's bad. I've been drinking FAR too much diet soda. No water, no exercising. I've got to find a way to make this work. I think I need to start packing a lunch for work, so ...

That goal may happen by Friday, we'll see! Was at 191.8 this weekend!! Up a little this morning (water fluctuation drives me nuts!) But these are the things that happened over the weekend: I bought a pair of size 16 pants!!! Yes, SIXTEEN!!! I can't remember the last time I wore a 16!And they fit comfortably, not tight. I tried on swimsuits and didn't want to cry. I was able to try on a LARGE!! Not an 2xl or a 1xl or even an xl, a LARGE! Granted, my boobs weren't having it lol. They are still an XL. But my butt and mid-section fit in a large!  I found a swimsuit I feel comfortable enough to wear on the beach without a cover up!  I shaved my lady bits and could actually SEE what I was doing! No mirror needed! We leave Friday for our beach trip. I have memories from the last beach trip, I felt good in my skin till we got home and I looked through my pictures and thought - omg, I'm a moose! I was horrified by how I looked.I was so big, fat pouring out of...

Been working a lot, busy at home. Tired. Sick. Blah. Not getting in workouts. Eating bad. But somehow, still losing weight. 193 this week! 4lbs to my goal which is supposed to be next Friday so maybe... MAYBE I'll make it.  Kids went back to school Monday and it's been crazy! Then last night was my first night at work with school, I figured getting home so late I'd feel like crap today but not so much. Feeling pretty OK. So once I get everyone to school I will go ahead and get in half an hour of exercise. Shower. Get ready for work again!  Hubby asked me if I felt comfortable going to the waterpark yet, I said yes. I think I finally do! I need a new swimsuit though, mine are all way way too big!!! 

After my post this morning I was feeling crappy because I haven't worked out in a while (July 25th was my last workout) and I'm just kind of derailing, been eating carb loaded granola bars for breakfast and pizza for dinner. Not good. So I was like, you know what? I'm gonna do a workout, even if it's just 20 minutes. So I put on 20 minutes worth. The first one I'm coughing, spitting mucus, thinking I'm gonna suffocate in my body with my fluid filled lungs. But then as I started sweating and breathing it cleared up, I stopped coughing. I felt good! I still feel good. Got in over 30 minutes, burned over 300 calories and I feel good! I just have to do it!!!! It always makes my day better! I also need to find a breakfast food I can eat with my coffee. I really like the oats and honey crunchy granola bars but at 29g carbs... ouch. Guess I need to do some googling. But even at 29g carbs, I can still stay on track if I'm careful. I work today so I'll be packi...

I just can't seem to kick this damn cold! Coughing up tons of mucas, headache, sinus pain, congestion. Ibuprofen does nothing for the pain. Doesn't even take the edge off. Awful. I haven't felt like doing crap lately. I'm just barely cruising through life and work. My store opens next week, I'm scheduled to work a 13 hour day. I pray I am better by then!!! The whole week is going to be crazy, lots of stuff happening at work. My kids have all their meet-the-teacher events. I need to go supply shopping, clothes shopping. But I've just been too sick to do anything! Husband keeps telling me I need to go to the doctor, but for what? To be told it's a virus and will go away on it's on in a few weeks, because that's what will happen. Or given antibiotics that won't help a virus and just make me have issues in other ways (antibiotics and me don't mix!). Just waiting it out. It's been almost 4 weeks now! I haven't been eating good or trac...

I did manage to get in a workout yesterday and I went to work. I ended up burning about 4000 calories. First half of my work day was boring and slow but the second half I was up and moving and walking and got in almost 150 active minutes! Supposedly next couple of weeks we're supposed to see 4-5 days a week on the schedule (vs the 2 we're getting now) and they'll be busy, hopeful for that! I like that it keeps me on track with food, it keeps me moving and it's $$$ in my pocket! Still fighting this awful cough though, may have to break down and see a doctor about it! Blah!! But I have been noticing things... my work pants are loser every time I put them on. Shirts that used to fit kind of tight are loose, I can wear shirts I haven't worn in years again. When I look in the mirror I can see some change. In my legs and stomach area. I can't wait to see what changes another 20lbs brings! 175 was my goal, which is just about 20lbs away, but I think I'll pr...

Because each birthday derails my train and sends me into a bad spiral. The bad lunch, the cake, the next day it continues. Ugh. I am glad our birthdays are over for 2 months then after that it's a lovely 4 months before they start again! Not sure what my loss will be like this week, I try to only eat 1 meal when I know it's a high-cal high-carb meal, but I'm not sure that helps. Haven't worked out in forever and I need to get back to that. I'm fighting a cold, awful cough won't let up and yesterday is switched into other symptoms which sucks. But I need to force myself to workout, it'll help me have more energy all day if I do. I work today too, but I am not expecting any big calories burnt there. Lots of just standing in 1 spot right now.

Which means 5 days to risk screwing up. Work has only been giving us 2 days, I did get called in for an extra day last week and am hoping to again. But hopefully once the store opens we'll get more hours. I burn calories like crazy there, stay busy, don't eat but do drink lots of water. And make money, it's a win/win!  Over 2lbs gone this week. I'm getting sooo close to the 180s!! I can't wait! I haven't been in the 180s since.... um, well I got down to 189 when I went on a diet back in 2007 but it didn't last. I fell off the wagon pretty fast. I was only about 195lbs at that point anyway so I hadn't lost much. Despite only working 3 days this week I did manage to drop over 2lbs! When I'm home I try just to not think about eating, one meal around 11, then dinner. Done. Trying to stay busy with stuff at home. I cleaned out the boys closet and dresser, preparing for school. Got them all organized and got rid of anything that didn't fit and de...

That's what I'm calling today. I've been off the train, not terribly but there was cake (at a birthday party), ice cream and more crackers than I'd like to admit to. Despite all that I am down to 197.8! Not too bad. I go back to work today and am looking forward to that, it keeps me on the train, keeps me busy, keeps me moving. I've been fighting a cold, a chest cold, coughing so much. Yuck. I feel fine otherwise. Dreading the kids getting it. I may cough for a week, they'll cough for a month. Poor things! Also fighting the period from hell, really think I'm going to have to go see a doctor soon. But I'm so scared they'll want to do a hysterectomy and I'll gain a ton of weight from it. I guess that's it for today!

I don't screw up these last few days!!  Started work and WOW! I thought we would be stocking the shelves, maybe putting up some signs, stuff like that. NOPE. We were BUILDING shelves, building everything. We were lifting 10lb shelves over our heads on a 3ft ladder stretching to put them up, get them hooked properly. Over and over again for 7+ hours. My arms, my shoulders, back, legs, sides, feet, every inch of my body hurts. Day one I logged almost 400 active minutes, I walked over 8 miles. I hit records and got so many rewards from my fitbit it was crazy. Days 2, 3 and 4 were less intense but just as busy! I sliced my fingers open. I go from on the ground to on an 8ft ladder. Up and down up and down. Hard work. But it burnt some serious calories, about 4,000 a day, so it's all good! I did eat some questionable stuff - like I didn't pack a lunch on day 1 because I wasn't sure when or how lunch would work or if we had a fridge. So I got a turkey wrap from the gas st...

First, I'll say I'm pretty proud that I've lasted THREE whole months. I've never lasted on a diet more than a week or two.  I'm not making the progress I want though, I really wanted to see 2lbs a week at least. It's just not happening lately. I seem to have 2 or 3 weeks where I don't lose much then I'll drop 4lbs in a week. So maybe that's just how my body works but it's still not the steady loss I wanted to see. It's hard because I don't see the pay off from my work each week and it's disappointing. I can't decide if it's my thyroid coming back to haunt me (I'll get to that next), maybe I'm not eating enough calories or maybe I'm still eating too  many?! I don't know. The last few days I've been struggling with energy REAL bad. I'm just laggy, I've been wanting to nap after lunch everyday. It feels kind of like my thyroid is crapping out on me. So I'm thinking I may have to go get it ...

Happy 4th of July, a day late!!! We had a great day, did lots of fireworks and it was just really nice and peaceful! I got a job! Yep, someone finally hired me! I start Sunday. New store, so the starting job is going in to stock shelves and put up displays! They only had two shifts though - a mornings shift that ends at 2pm and an afternoon shift that goes 1-9. Anyone who couldn't work one of those would have to wait till the store opened to start so I decided to make it work. My oldest is going to babysit the girls the days I go in at 1 until his dad gets home around 3 or 4. It's only for a month, she is scheduling me for my two days I want to work day time (Sunday Monday) and then 2 additional days so he's only watching them 2 days a week. After the stores opens they'll give me normal shifts that meet my availability. Hopefully this works out! Seems like a good place to work. Lots of potential for moving up in the company. In 90 days they will cut if they still have...

 I did it!! I DID IT, I DID IT, I DIIIIIIDDDDD ITTT!!!! Excuse the blurry picture, crappy cell phone mixed with not being able to turn the light on (babies sleeping).  Tomorrow is weigh in but I'm doing it a day early because, well I had a feeling I'd be there. SO excited!!! This is the first time in years I've been under 200lbs!! Really motivates me to keep going!  My reward for this is - SKIPPING CHEAT DAY! Yes, I am done with cheat-day Sunday. We do DQ on Sundays so I may have a mini blizzard but I can eat half and fit that into my macros. Sunday always sets me back, then I'll screw up Monday and it's a vicious cycle so I'm just gonna stick to it. I've lost 25lbs in 11 weeks, so I know I can do another 25 in 3 more months! Although I know the lower I go, the harder it will be. I got this.  So what am I doing? People ask this, it's funny because on some of the facebook boards I'm one of the people asked how they did it, vs being...

I am back on that train and feeling GREAT again! Also down a few pounds but let's wait till Sunday for that! Yesterday was a busy day, I got up had my coffee did my workout. Then I had to go out and fix our fence so the puppy can't get out. I had a confrontation with the BIGGEST SPIDER I'VE EVER SEEN! It was like a horror movie scene with this thing. It got away so it's somewhere in my garage, waiting to attack!! Ugh. Took my kids to swim after that and I actually swam, like laps, which is hard in a round pool lol. But I was feeling it after 10 minutes. Got out and made everyone lunch, then had a job interview at 2. Did that, IDK if it went well or not. The reality is that 99% of the other applicants probably have 10 years of experience and I haven't worked in 14. And they are probably available at all hours, where as I can only work evenings. They are looking for people to help in a temp position and right now, I'd take that. She said if you get that and prov...

This may be my hardest challenge yet. We LOVE to eat out. Mostly me. I think it's because it's a break from mom duties. Dinner in our house, with 8 people is a lot of work and a huge mess. Prep, cooking and eating leaves me with 2 loads of dishes plus an hour of clean up. While I'm in the kitchen doing that the kids are destroying the rest of the house so then I have to do that (or get on them to do it which is equally exhausting). Then our 2 yr olds basically cry and scream through every dinner because they're tired and cranky, I'm up and down getting new forks for kids who dropped them, filling drinks, getting little kids more food and always holding someone on my lap. It's an exhausting meal. So I love going out for dinner. The girls usually behave better out, someone else preps, cooks and cleans. They serve me and my kids! BUT, my favorite places to go are hibachi and mexican. Which means I eat rice, noodles, carb filled yumyum sauce. Chips, tortillas and wh...

Today I was at 204 according to the scale. *insert very sad face here* No one to blame but myself. I had 3 slices of pizza this week, a bacon cheddar steakhouse burger from Mcdonalds and a few fries. Cake. All the cake. My bday was Sunday so we bought a big cake and I had probably 4 slices of it over 2 days and some ice cream. We ate out a lot and I didn't behave myself. Hibachi (I ate the rice AND the noodles). Mexican food - I had enchiladas, tamales and had some chips. We went to applebees and got steak w/ salad, not the worst. Except for the gigantic margarita I had!!! I was beyond buzzed. So yeah, only myself to blame. And I'm paying for it. Letting myself eat all that, over eat ect has left me like I'm starting over. I feel hungry, often. I crave bad stuff again. Really wasn't worth it. I think I may actually be keto-fluing again. I'm feel like total crap. Headache, body ache, tired and blah. Back on track now. Going out for lunch with hubby today, Mex...

Today I got up, had my coffee. Girls got up. I decided to get my work out in, 47 glorious minutes of butt-kicking cardio. Burnt 491 cals according to fitbit. Then I cleaned up, made lunch. And got tired! I've been fighting this little headache the last few days, interestingly enough I also have not had any soda so I thought maybe that is why. But I am drinking MIO in my water and it has caffeine so IDK, maybe that's not it. Anyway, I was just tired, wanted to nap. So I laid on the couch, watched a movie with the kids. Watched some more tv. Just didn't do anything. Wanted to eat but resisted. Got up, cleaned a bit. Had half a coffee (only had half at breakfast), and an atkins bar which I shouldn't have ate but I wanted to see if it would help pick me up. It didn't. So I said ya know what?! I'm gonna put on a few workout videos and just do it. I did and I feel like 10000000% better now. 24 minutes, 210 calories out. My 9 yr old did it with me, they laugh usually a...

There are a lot of things they say exercise does that I call total b/s on --- for instance, helping with cramps or making your periods lighter. LIES. It makes me cramp worse and bleed like I've been stabbed in the heart. BUT, the days I get a really good workout in, I don't feel so hungry in the mornings. I'm trying to do nothing but coffee in the mornings again, I feel like the Atkins bars were holding me back. So it does seem to curb appetite for me! I am looking forward to lunch though! This was yesterdays and I'm planning to do the same today. Now this isn't "Keto" approved but I'm not really doing full keto, I'm doing low-carb. So I have 1/4 cup full fat cottage cheese, 2.8ozs of sliced ham. This is from the deli, but I will tell you it tastes like bacon. It's like really soft, delicious, amazing bacon. 1/2 cup of watermelon and a small salad that consisited of 4 slices (I then chopped) of cucumber, 1 tbs of red onion and 4 cherry tom...

Hubby is back to work and our schedule is back to normal! Yesterday was my first day back to sticking to my diet and I didn't do real well. I did ok up till dinner. That's where it went south. But it wasn't the worst so I'm not going to beat myself up over it. I did get in a workout yesterday, I took the boys skating! I loved skating as a kid, my mom and I would go 2 times a week and we had a blast!! So I've been wanting to take my kids and finally got to yesterday! The last time I had been skating was about 5 years ago, it was a moms night out. We were horrible, kept falling and decided to just leave and go get drinks instead lol. So I was nervous because here I was, hadn't skating in a long time and had 3 kids who have never skated, ever, to try to help. I don't know if it was because I'm more in shape now than I was even just 8 weeks ago, but definitely more in shape than I was 5 years ago! Or if a higher power just was on my side and knew I neede...

This week has been more bad than good but somehow, I've lost more weight that previous weeks!! Husband filled the house with junk, he's been on vacation. I've had bday parties and playdates to go to. I had cake at the birthday party. We had DQ yesterday for a treat for the kids. We had a long day and no one felt like cooking so we ordered pizza. I wasn't going to eat it but I was starving and just didn't feel like cooking, even just for myself, so I had 3 slices - crust and all! I had a granola bar the other day (it was like 33g carbs). Sonic messed up my drink order and it was most certainly NOT diet. I actually didn't drink much of it, but I had some. I also have only got in 2 days of exercise all week! So this morning I got on that scale expecting to see the worst.... but instead I'm down 3.2lbs!! How did that even happen?! Am I starving my body? Is that why I'm not losing as fast? Should I be eating more? Maybe getting more carbs than 50? I don...

My husband wanted to do the grocery shopping this week, he had friends coming over so I said yes because I always screw up and buy the "wrong" meat. He calls me on his way home and asks if that was a larger shopping list than usual? I told him well, with the kids home I am spending a bit more needing more snacks and stuff through the day - while the kids wouldn't normally snack at school they sure do at home! He asked how much I expected that to cost and I said oh 225-250. He said oh ok. Gets home, I see the receipt - $350!!! The kids are helping him unload and I think I had a mini seizure as they were hauling in - a case of hugs, boxes of capri suns, chocolate dipped granola bars, DONUTS, popcorn, chips, boxed mac and cheese. SO MUCH JUNK! I was mad, I was like omg, I've worked SO hard to get them weaned off all this crap and you just filled the house with it! I asked him - were you hungry when you shopped? "Yes". EAT FIRST. No more. Nope. He lost his groce...

Well the scale this morning said 1 lb down! I was let down, I was really hoping for two.  I know that 1lb is good, average weight loss but I want to see 2 lbs darnit! Of course if you take the 8 weeks I've been doing this and divide by the 18.8lbs, I average 2.35lbs a week. But I feel like I was doing good, getting 2lbs, 3lbs now it's just 1lb.. I wonder if it was the cookie I had mid-week or maybe eating too late. Maybe my keto-desserts are hurting me. Low-carb they are, low-fat they are not! Maybe I'm one of those people that diet sodas still make me gain. Maybe I need to cut my AM coffee. I don't know exactly what's going on, all I can do is try to mix it up and see what happens. So this week, I am cutting back to 1250 calories. NO diet sodas at all, I don't drink many but I have been drinking 1 can a day lately. More water. No food past 7pm, if we're late having dinner I'll survive! Mixing up my cardio with some tabota.  And I'm making i...

 My muscles, dream and kids are crazy.  I was talking to my husband about it and I said do you remember on that shark movie, Deep Blue Sea, where she adds the sharks sample to the Alzheimer patient sample and it starts firing. I think that's what my muscles are doing, firing. Coming to life after not getting much use! Spazzing out! My back muscle freaked out yesterday and then last night I had a muscle twitch in my obliques that started around 10pm last night and is still, 12 hours later, twitching. Which I think is what brought on my dreams because it feels a lot like a baby kicking! Last night I had a dream that I was pregnant, with twins, again! But the only baby I was feeling was the one on the front left so I was searching some weird storage place for a doppler. Then I suddenly snapped into being labor and giving birth at home, to TRIPLETS lol. Then I woke up. Whew! When I woke up my muscle was really going crazy lol.  Today I got in a great workou...

I set an alarm today to get up extra early so I could get a workout in BEFORE any kids got up. Of course before any of that I had to feed chickens. While doing that all of a sudden this intense stabbing pain in my shoulder blade came on. It took me to my knees. I thought I was having a heart attack at first (until I realized that was the wrong side lol). I took some deep breaths and tried to stretch out my arm and then finished the chickens real quick and hobbled into the house. Woke up my 16 yr old and begged him to try to pop my back (normally my 12 yr old does this wonderfully but I didn't want to risk waking the other kids). He tried, no luck. So it hit me, it was probably muscle pain not bone. I can't reach to massage this spot so I'm just doing shoulder rolls and lifting my arm up and down to try to work out that muscle. It actually helps. I also took some iburpofen because, ouch. I have a high tolerance for pain, I gave birth to two 10 1/2lb babies with no drugs befo...

Yesterday I had such horrible sweet cravings all day, gahh!! Plus I felt SO hungry all day. Didn't matter how much water I drank, I felt starving. Maybe that salad for lunch was a bad idea, not enough calories or protein to keep me full! We have left over pork from dinner so that will be lunch today. Got my exercise in this morning, it was hard, I wasn't feeling it so I really had to force myself to put everything into it. When I realized I was just kind of standing there, doing the movements but not moving, I turned it off and just went into my ab workouts. Crunches, side crunches, 30 second planks. Push ups, leg kicks, weight lifting. Fitbit says 350 cals. better than nothing but I'd like to see 400. I really need to get to 600 or so a day. I think I need a treadmill. When I get burnt out on the videos I like to jog, I like to put my music on and go for it. It clears my mind and gives me a break from the kids. I know it doesn't burn as many calories, but it does hel...

Yesterday was kind of a blah day.  We left the city and bought our country house but have quickly realized we want to be out further, on more land. 2 acres just isn't cutting it. We kind of came up with this 5 year plan - buy 20 acres, clear it ourselves, work on building a home on it. Doing as much of the work as we can ourselves so we come out with a small mortgage.  But the first step is buying the land and we need more income for that. Hubby works full time, we do well but there definitely isn't enough to add on another big loan to our single income. So the bank folks say if I can make 600 a month and show steady work for 6 months to a year we should have absolutely no issues buying property. Fine. I was wanting to start back to working anyway, get some experience - it's been 14 years since I've worked! Well, it's been 2 months since we decided this and I've put in at least 20 applications and I've only got one call - just to tell me I wasn'...

Exactly 1 lb down this week. Considering the screw ups, the birthday cake, the ice cream. I'm REALLY happy with that! But now, it's crunch time. Goal #1 is in 14 days and I don't know if I'm gonna get there. I wanted to be at 199 by my birthday, it may not happen but I should be close!  Decided to take today off from exercise and tracking - I'll mentally track but no figuring out macros. I may do a small workout later, we'll see. Hubby and kids are off to the movies - probably won't be back till 2pmish. I was thinking about taking kids rollerskating later, I LOVED rollerskating as a kid. I went with my mom every Friday and Sunday, we had such a blast together! So I'd like to start that with my kids, my older kids. My oldest has to work (boo!) but I could take my 12, 9 and 6 yr old and we can learn together! The downside is the nearest roller rink is a 20 minute drive, boo! But maybe if we get good we'll just start going down to the skate par...

After the carby cake fiasco of our sons bday hubby did not want cake for his birthday but what is a birthday without something sweet?! So I whipped up these adorable keto-friendly cheesecake bites! They were AHHHMAAZING!!!  1 8oz container of cream cheese (at room temp) 1/4 cup pyure 1 egg 1 tsp vanilla.  That's it! Mix it, done! The crust - 1/2 cup of almond flour blended with butter till it's crumbly (just like graham crackers).  I used silicone cupcake pans, pressed the crust mixture down, added a scoop of the filling, bake at 350 for 15-20  minutes and done!  Chill for at least 4 hours. My topping is just a handful of chopped strawberries, some water, a squirt of lemon, pyure to sweeten your liking. Cook it till the strawberries are tender and it cooks down a bit and chill till you serve! SO GOOD!  You MUST make these!!! This recipe made 9 little cheesecake bites, 2 for the birthday dad and one for everyone els...

I was having tummy trouble, I thought it was related to the Brussel sprouts and it may have been somewhat, but my husband ended up having to take a day off work due to tummy troubles and my other kids have it now. So I guess it's just a little bug. One of my twins has something going on, I think it's teeth maybe mixed with the belly thing. She's been fighting a fever for a few days and just really miserable. We haven't been getting much sleep. Our 3rd born turned 9 on Tuesday! He wanted Burger King for lunch and a marble cake.. I passed on lunch. As much as those burgers looked and smelled so good, I knew that was too far. I did have cake, a small slice and it was delicious. It was also like 350 calories and 33g carbs. Ugh. Tried to sneak a workout in because I really needed it but with a sick kid and the boys needing 1 thing after another, I only got 20 minutes in before I had to call it. Wednesday was rough. Didn't sleep much but my little one was feeling be...

Rough couple of days, I've been fighting some pretty bad fatigue and stomach issues. Not sure what's going on. Feeling a ton better today. Hoping it was all just related to cycle issues. Yesterday was weigh in, so happy to see 208.2!! Worked hard for it this week. We did eat kind of poopy yesterday though, decided to take the kids to lunch at a chinese buffet (their favorite) and I limited how much I ate but not what. But then we got right back on the train and had a good dinner. Back to the grind today! Hoping to get in a workout, wasn't feeling up to it yesterday at all. Hubby didn't lose anything, I think he's lost the fat and water weight and now is going to have to watch calories and exercise to keep losing. He's not big on the idea. We'll see.

I don't know how accurate the fitbit is but the trend I noticed was that my runs don't burn nearly as many calories as my video workouts. So I thought that was crazy, because they sure FEEL like a bigger workout but according to google (and many many different health sites) running in fact burns less calories than well, most workouts! So I told my husband, when my goal is to burn calories, it just makes sense to double on the aerobic workouts and only do runs if I need a mix up of what I'm doing or if the internet is down or something (that happens, a lot, especially in storm season). The only perk to running is that it's a break from kids. I get to listen to my music and run and not have anyone bugging me.Oh and I get to watch the sunset and the sunsets here are AMAZING! So I've been doing 2 workouts a day, trying to get at least 30 minutes each (did 40 this morning). Burns roughly 250-400 calories, depending on how much I "put into" it. I also do my ar...

Today was our last awards assembly of the year! When you have a lot of kids, end of year assemblies keep you very busy! Today I had no sitter though, so I had to take my girls and well, they took me! Whew! I sweat more while trying to keep them in line, running in and out as one or the other cried,  than I do during a workout! It was stressful and I was sad I couldn't give my 100% to the kid I was there to see. So when I left and finally got the girls in the car my "stress" response was - EAT. I should eat. Let's go to Chick Fil A. I almost had myself talked into it, by the time I got there they'd be serving lunch. I'd just get nuggets (I know I wouldn't, I'd have caved once I got there). But somehow I talked myself off the limb and I came home. I was pretty hungry, I did coffee way early since I knew my normal coffee time would be get babies dressed to go time. So I came home and I looked in the fridge, in the pantry, in the "snack" cupboar...

I said if we stuck to this for a whole month I'd clean out the pantry, get rid of all the foods we can't/don't want to eat.  Here is what is off to the food bank! Lots of soups, canned tomatoes (they ALL had added sugars!), cornbread mixes, stuffing, pasta, rice, beans. Veggies I won't put to use (canned potatoes, for example).  After my pantry looks a little bare. I know, there are still some not-keto-friendly foods but I kept things the kids will use and I do still bake for the kids with flour and oats. Over summer I'll be making them breakfast bars and chewy granola snack bars. I know they're not the best, but when I make them at least I can control what's in them and that it's healthier and not sugar-filled junk that you buy at the store. 

That was the number on the scale this morning, a number I was happy to see!!!! Not sure I'll hit my goal of 199 by my birthday (June 17th) but I think I'll be darn close! It would mean I'd have to lose more than 2lbs a week, which is a lot, but I did lose 3lbs this week so maybe!!  Up to a grand total of... 14.6lbs down! YAY!!!! 35 more to go!

I'm sweating more than usual because I'm feverish but I got that 30 minutes in!!! It felt good too, even being sick! So week 1 done. I was going to take a 2 day break but I may just keep up with it daily. And maybe start increasing my workout times. But for right now I'm pretty happy with this! But then I did this... We ended up not getting McDonalds yesterday, we made dinner instead. I was happy about that but this morning they were begging again so I went to get it... line was out the door around the block. Ugh. I came home and offered pizza and they accepted. I was bad and had 1/2 of a slice. So good, but so bad. 100 calories and 14g carbs (according to Dominios website). Gah! Finished off lunch with left over Parmesan chicken and cheese bread. Which was a keto recipe so very low-carb. Not so much low-calorie though. Cheese is so high-calorie. I love the keto fathead doughs but when I'm watching calories and fats, so much cheese just isn't a...

That's what I feel like this morning. Like I was hit by a truck! I could barely get off my bed, my body ached - this isn't sore from workout ache, this is maybe fluish ache. Ugh. I broke down and took 3 ibuprofen. Now I'm feeling better so I'm gonna go workout before the blah comes back. My plans of going out today are turning into just staying home, but that's ok. A day off is good! Tomorrow is weigh in so I really don't want to skip my workout today even if I feel like poo. Gotta push forward! My husbands annual company beach retreat is coming up. August 25th. Last year we had fun but I got photographed, a lot, and those pictures got put in the employee newsletter... horrifying!!!! One was a donut eating contest - they hung donuts and you had to eat them without your hands. They were asking for kids so I got my son to do it. I did NOT realize after the kids, their parents had to do it too. OMG.  Fat lady eating a donut from a string. I could have died ri...

I woke up with a mild headache and itchy sore throat. I still got in my half an hour of workout though! Proud of myself. I also painted the girls play table (it comes natural meant to be painted, I've had it for 2 years and am just now doing it lol). It looks great! So tomorrow I'm going to yard sale hop and hope to find a set of chairs to go with it. I'm trying to make their play room look a little nicer so I've got a rug I wanna lay out in there and this table with some chairs. Then maybe hit ross for some wall decorations. Fun stuff! AFTER WORKING OUT, of course! ;) Yesterday it rained from noon till about 5pm. Hubby wanted to go out and work in his garage so I said fine, it's too wet to run, I'll just workout inside. This is how it went - start a video, toddler cries. Get her happy, start another video, other toddler cries. Get her happy, start video, husband opens door and says, "he got dirt in his eye, can you wash it?". Of course. Wash screa...

Every thing hurts. Shins, knees, arms, legs.   But it's a good hurt! It is a *I've burnt 600-700 calories a day in exercise* hurt! I told my husband I may have to take a break today and he says, "You say that but you won't". He's right. I'm gonna keep going, no pain no gain.  Today my Kindergartner had his awards assembly so I went to that,  I didn't end up having time to drink my morning coffee but I did sneak in 1 of t hese amazing chocolate muffins . However, I count on that morning coffee to "hold me" till lunch. It always does. So not having it? I was STARVING when I left the awards at 10am! My first instinct is - FAST FOOD. Where can I go get food. All we have in town is a McDonalds and there isn't much there I can eat, plus it was still breakfast. So I ran into the store and grabbed a few things we needed at home. The cookies and bakery items were calling me but I ignored them. Got home, wanted to eat something so bad but ...