Counting Down 50

I did manage to get in a workout yesterday and I went to work. I ended up burning about 4000 calories. First half of my work day was boring and slow but the second half I was up and moving and walking and got in almost 150 active minutes! Supposedly next couple of weeks we're supposed to see 4-5 days a week on the schedule (vs the 2 we're getting now) and they'll be busy, hopeful for that! I like that it keeps me on track with food, it keeps me moving and it's $$$ in my pocket! Still fighting this awful cough though, may have to break down and see a doctor about it! Blah!! But I have been noticing things... my work pants are loser every time I put them on. Shirts that used to fit kind of tight are loose, I can wear shirts I haven't worn in years again. When I look in the mirror I can see some change. In my legs and stomach area. I can't wait to see what changes another 20lbs brings! 175 was my goal, which is just about 20lbs away, but I think I'll pr

Because each birthday derails my train and sends me into a bad spiral. The bad lunch, the cake, the next day it continues. Ugh. I am glad our birthdays are over for 2 months then after that it's a lovely 4 months before they start again! Not sure what my loss will be like this week, I try to only eat 1 meal when I know it's a high-cal high-carb meal, but I'm not sure that helps. Haven't worked out in forever and I need to get back to that. I'm fighting a cold, awful cough won't let up and yesterday is switched into other symptoms which sucks. But I need to force myself to workout, it'll help me have more energy all day if I do. I work today too, but I am not expecting any big calories burnt there. Lots of just standing in 1 spot right now.

Which means 5 days to risk screwing up. Work has only been giving us 2 days, I did get called in for an extra day last week and am hoping to again. But hopefully once the store opens we'll get more hours. I burn calories like crazy there, stay busy, don't eat but do drink lots of water. And make money, it's a win/win!  Over 2lbs gone this week. I'm getting sooo close to the 180s!! I can't wait! I haven't been in the 180s since.... um, well I got down to 189 when I went on a diet back in 2007 but it didn't last. I fell off the wagon pretty fast. I was only about 195lbs at that point anyway so I hadn't lost much. Despite only working 3 days this week I did manage to drop over 2lbs! When I'm home I try just to not think about eating, one meal around 11, then dinner. Done. Trying to stay busy with stuff at home. I cleaned out the boys closet and dresser, preparing for school. Got them all organized and got rid of anything that didn't fit and de

That's what I'm calling today. I've been off the train, not terribly but there was cake (at a birthday party), ice cream and more crackers than I'd like to admit to. Despite all that I am down to 197.8! Not too bad. I go back to work today and am looking forward to that, it keeps me on the train, keeps me busy, keeps me moving. I've been fighting a cold, a chest cold, coughing so much. Yuck. I feel fine otherwise. Dreading the kids getting it. I may cough for a week, they'll cough for a month. Poor things! Also fighting the period from hell, really think I'm going to have to go see a doctor soon. But I'm so scared they'll want to do a hysterectomy and I'll gain a ton of weight from it. I guess that's it for today!

I don't screw up these last few days!!  Started work and WOW! I thought we would be stocking the shelves, maybe putting up some signs, stuff like that. NOPE. We were BUILDING shelves, building everything. We were lifting 10lb shelves over our heads on a 3ft ladder stretching to put them up, get them hooked properly. Over and over again for 7+ hours. My arms, my shoulders, back, legs, sides, feet, every inch of my body hurts. Day one I logged almost 400 active minutes, I walked over 8 miles. I hit records and got so many rewards from my fitbit it was crazy. Days 2, 3 and 4 were less intense but just as busy! I sliced my fingers open. I go from on the ground to on an 8ft ladder. Up and down up and down. Hard work. But it burnt some serious calories, about 4,000 a day, so it's all good! I did eat some questionable stuff - like I didn't pack a lunch on day 1 because I wasn't sure when or how lunch would work or if we had a fridge. So I got a turkey wrap from the gas st

First, I'll say I'm pretty proud that I've lasted THREE whole months. I've never lasted on a diet more than a week or two.  I'm not making the progress I want though, I really wanted to see 2lbs a week at least. It's just not happening lately. I seem to have 2 or 3 weeks where I don't lose much then I'll drop 4lbs in a week. So maybe that's just how my body works but it's still not the steady loss I wanted to see. It's hard because I don't see the pay off from my work each week and it's disappointing. I can't decide if it's my thyroid coming back to haunt me (I'll get to that next), maybe I'm not eating enough calories or maybe I'm still eating too  many?! I don't know. The last few days I've been struggling with energy REAL bad. I'm just laggy, I've been wanting to nap after lunch everyday. It feels kind of like my thyroid is crapping out on me. So I'm thinking I may have to go get it

Happy 4th of July, a day late!!! We had a great day, did lots of fireworks and it was just really nice and peaceful! I got a job! Yep, someone finally hired me! I start Sunday. New store, so the starting job is going in to stock shelves and put up displays! They only had two shifts though - a mornings shift that ends at 2pm and an afternoon shift that goes 1-9. Anyone who couldn't work one of those would have to wait till the store opened to start so I decided to make it work. My oldest is going to babysit the girls the days I go in at 1 until his dad gets home around 3 or 4. It's only for a month, she is scheduling me for my two days I want to work day time (Sunday Monday) and then 2 additional days so he's only watching them 2 days a week. After the stores opens they'll give me normal shifts that meet my availability. Hopefully this works out! Seems like a good place to work. Lots of potential for moving up in the company. In 90 days they will cut if they still have